Gonna try a new way of thinking

My new way of thinking is that I might possibly lose weight at any given time. I don't need to wait for a hard core week of training, or the weather to get nice for running outside, or for the grocery stores to stock more fruit because then I'll all of a sudden eat less. No, it could happen this week.

Today I'm hungry. So far, it's only 11:30, so it's just lunch pang coming early. Morning snack was only baby carrots so that also affects the tummy. Sometimes they make me more hungry, sometimes more full. Gonna wait out 30 minutes and then eat my salad with chicken, plus some berries and some melon. Yum fruit. Grapes can be afternoon snack with yogurts. I packed lots and lots of food today, but all fruit and veggies, well and yogurt. Also have an apple and 2 kiwis in there. So I will not go hungry. But I'm going to try and not just eat because it's there. Though if I do, it's only fruit today. No biggie. I packed like this for a long time, but I've been adding in fibre bars and stuff. And if I've got them, they are the first to get eaten. Not any more.

Part of my thinking is baby time steps. For example, today (aside from breakfast, didn't think of it in time) I'm not going to eat any starchy carbs. No rice, bread, potatoes etc. Just for today. Then maybe on Thursday. I don't have to give them up forever, but lets make a nice consistent day of it. Work my way up to 90% good.

Yesterday went grocery shoppign with my sis. Took a really long time. Oh well. Didn't get home until 7:00, by the time I unpacked it was almost time for weight class! So I just had a quick peanut butter toast. Not great of course. But that was before I came up with my new attitude. Then class was good. Nice and tough. I get annoyed with myself when something's too hard though. I think it should be easier for me. Everything was easy-ish, except squats. But my legs are the only thing that are sore now so that just shows you it has to be hard to be effective. It just made me want to do squats more on my own and build up my strength. But unfortunately right now it doesn't fit in the schedule! Step is priority right now.

After class, walked my dog. That's another thing takes up time. Since it's not nice enough to run with her outside, she gets walks that don't count as my exercise. So sometime she gets robbed of her exercise if mine takes priority. then I feel guilty. Yet another thing to add to my to do list. (the snow will be gone soon right? I can run outside soon?)

Anyway, that's all that happened. Oh yeah, and hubby was over it. We had a bit of a chat, we've been sort of prickly with each other for the last 2 weeks. I'm always ready to get over it (I am DEFINATELY the typical guy in our relationship) whereas hubby needs to be mad for a little while. So we always make up when he's ready and he's just been busy and not ready lately. But he pointed out that he doesn't WANT to be mad at me, especially with all the outside relationship stuff going on. (we found out his cousin is getting a divorce, because her husband cheated on her, they've got 4 year old twins and a 6 month old baby, and he feels no remorse. Poor girl.) So yeah, when there is nothing really the matter, it's best to be happy.