all or nothing?

So I may have fallen into a bit of "all or nothing" thinking. I am usually never like this so it's a bit concerning. However having noticed it, I believe I can rectify the situation.

It comes with my gyming, or lack thereof. I haven't been going to the gym like my good little self. I think i'm protesting for warmer summer weather. Not working so far. I'm just finding excuses to not go. Disappointing since I'm even remembering my mp3 player! It just seems like every single day after work (I leave 4:30-5:00) I have to stop somewhere and do something. For example it might be groceries, it might be Walmart or Costco (doing returns lately, but sometimes it's kleenex etc or whatever.) Yesterday it was because I wanted to buy my new shoes (I'll take pics later, so cool). Today is groceries, I also want to get home and make supper sometimes! So all of this makes me not want to go to the gym. I just want to be at home when I'm done work! In the summer I could do this and then run from home. Even when it's nicer out here I can do that, but it's dark out by 5:00 so I'd be running in the dark which I'd rather not do, on top of the cold.

Why is that all or nothing? Because I feel like i'm doing nothing because i'm not doing it all. I'm not exercising 4 days a week which used to be my minimum, I'm still doing 2 or 3 but not giving myself credit for that. My classes are 1.5 hours so that's a MINIMUM of 3 hours of fairly intense workout per week so that's not really bad at all is it? My gym only adds maybe another 1 or 1.5 hours of cardio. So i'm not at nothing. I'm only at 75% or so. That's alright.

I need my eating to reflect that however. My eating needs to be more on target to make up for it. And it is during the day and all my meals. My problem lately has been supper. Either before or after. I'm having a hard time keeping supper to a defined meal. I either eat before hand while making it (need to up the afternoon snack!) or eat too much "dessert" afterward. Last night was terrible. I had a big bowl of brownie triffle thing (brownie and whipped cream concoction from SIL) and then a banana with PB. WTH? I was also gonna make a smoothie afterward but stuck to some green tea instead. I think tonight I gotta go straight for the green tea. That's a good enough yummy dessert. I also need to remember that if I workout I can eat more. Like after my class I'll be having a smoothie so I don't need to eat like it's my last meal for 13 hours. But yesterday, where I did not workout, I shouldn't have had any dessert. I need to tie my food in with my activity level more closely.

But like I said, now that I've identified it, hopefully I can fix it!

Yeah so I bought shoes yesterday. They're Brooks I think. I'll take a picture I swear. (I never get around to this do I?) Regular $150 but because of the sale (-30%) I got them for $110 tax included. Super expensive but I haven't bought shoes outside walmart for like 5 years (I'm talking dress shoes, running shoes, every day shoes. If they're more than $40 there's no way I'll get them. The shoes I wear every day for the past 2 years cost me $5, I think I had some shoe money left in the budget)

Anyway. Gotta go warm up my soup! Getting good mileage out of that pot!