happy day and life changing discussions

So I had a nice day yesterday. Went to SILs for supper and then to a chipboard album (scrapbook) class with her. She made chicken nuggets (homemade), baby potatoes and cauliflower for supper. I ate less than I would have at home. But was still full. Then we had to race to class. I saw that she LOADED her plate. No problem, she's breastfeeding needs lots of food. It was pretty healthy stuff. But she especially loaded her potatoes, then loaded them with butter and sour cream. ALSO, the cauliflower she made a cheese sauce for. I grabbed mine before the sauce got mixed in so I just have a hint of cheese flavour (cheese whiz is definately not clean eating. It is a weird, man made, chemical product. I do love it on toast though...) Anyway, she also wonders why she's not losing any weight even though she's breast feeding. On top of that, she ate one of those little granola bars that LA weight loss pushes on you. If I was eating like that, I wouldn't be losing weight. Even though apparently she's on plan for her program, she maybe should figure out what works for her, not a generic program that says you can eat that much processed foods and starchy carbs and stuff. Just a thought.

I will admit that by the time I got home at 10:00 I was starting to get hungry. But I often feel a bit hungry when I go to bed, particularly if I stay up too long, then it's time for another meal (every 3 hours right?). I just went to bed instead. And woke up to a pleasant scale sneak peak.

The chipboard class unfortunately was a bit of a waste of money. Just a bit, because it was only $6, but you had to buy your own supplies. The class was nothing more than just covering it in patterned paper and then sanding and inking the edges, so it looked really nice and everything, but it's definately something I could have done at home on my own. They didn't teach anything. And sanding and glueing both sides of every letter in the word FAMILY takes quite a bit of time.

Anyway, tonight I was gonna go out with my girlfriends to a movie, but turns out our insurance people are coming over for the annual visit thing. Boo insurance salespeople! Seems like such a scam doesn't it? I wouldn't have any insurance except for the house but hubby is a big fan of insurance. I was always like "well if you die, why would I need to be rich? It won't make me feel better. If I never have to work again, I think I'd be more depressed and sad." It just seemed kinda weird, like when something horrible and sad happens, you win the lottery. I do understand it when you have kids, and to pay off your mortgage and stuff. But I still don't like it. I can't even keep track of all the different insurances we have now. (accident, critical illness, life, health and dental etc etc. and we live in Canada, free health care?)

But it's also good because I feel like I haven't been home in ages. I really want to clean my house, empty out the garden in case of frosts coming up. (plus then I can make salsa!) do some laundry. Get working on the veil and dress for the wedding. And workout. Very busy.

So the life changing discussions section of todays blog post has to do with babies. I finally heard from my pregnant best friend (who lives in Edmonton and I only see a couple times a year). She's nagging me to have a baby since we always said this fall and it pretty much is this fall. Plus hearing about pregnancy makes me want to. But then visiting kids and babies makes me not want to. I'm still at the stage where I want to be pregnant, but not have kids. ha! Like SIL last night, she left her baby with dad for our class. It was the first time she left her baby with him since she was born, 4.5 months ago! I can't imagine having something tied to me for 4.5 months with no breaks except when we're both sleeping! But hubby has assured me that he will give me weekly Me nights right from the beginning. phew!

But the other thing about having a baby is, I havent' figured any of it out! Like I don't know anything about mat leave, or if we can afford it, we don't have a nest egg saved up for this. Plus we'll have to buy all this furniture and diapers and stuff. Our basement isn't even started yet and I would love to still have a spare bedroom when we convert ours to the nursery, and probably a second bathroom. Not to mention maybe air conditioning, since if this is gonna be the timing, then I'll be nice and preggers in the heat of the summer. But if we do all that, then there goes the money for the baby! Of couse we'd have 9 months to get ready for it and save up and stuff. Still. I feel like instead of just having a baby when we feel like it, we should also get ready for it and plan for it, and we haven't done that part yet.

On top of that, here I am, 5 lbs away from goal. About to say bu-bye to that and have to start all over again after baby. I don't know if I'm really ok with that. It'll be like I dieted down to awesome for SILs wedding and that's it. Granted it should help me stay reasonable with baby and it's not like my eating and exercise will change that much at first (or at all, I'm a big fan of exercising while pregnant!). I dunno, I just like to make lists and plan for big things like this and have a countdown and get ready and I think I just need to do that here.

Sorry for the random thought blabbing there. I think I need to make a list at home with hubby and I'll feel better. Set out a plan to finish the basement, some timelines for saving money and stuff like that. I know I'll stay on the pill until at least SILs wedding, for the off chance it happens right away, I don't want to be all morning sick for the wedding. (plus that's only in 5 weeks! Much too soon to finish a countdown list and get stuff ready!)