Wednesday, October 29, 2008

false start

So yesterday ended up being nothing like I planned. Absolutely nothing. But I'm not going to dwell on it. Or even tell you guys all about it (suffice it to say my dad was in town and took us out for supper with appetizers and dessert). Anyway so that was a bad day. However, I feel gross now, and just dread eating completely. It's 10:20 and I should be having my morning snack, but the thought of any food sort of grosses me out. However I also was reminded of a lesson I've learned too many times yesterday. Don't get too hungry, eat when you're supposed to eat. Driving to the restaurant I was feeling faint and having cold sweats and seeing spots. Then I ate every single thing I could find on my way out the door and in my car (chocolate bar, crackers and cheese, more crackers.) It was a blood sugar thing, not just a binge. I would have drank pure maple syrup if I could find it, I was gonna pass out. (sometimes I get like this, sometimes I can go forever without eating with no problem. Is it hypoglycemic or something?)

Anyway, so hopefully my lack of appetite today and disgust with myself today is enough to let me have a good day. (always the bright side). Today I've got kickboxing class. there goes the evening. I also have to get some groceries today. (lunch has canned fruit and pudding as I'm out of fresh stuff besides an orange.) I didn't plan supper yet. gotta be something light because I always feel weighed down in my class. Maybe some soup and sandwiches or something.

Anyway, that's all I've got today, I screwed up yesterday (the scale showed me down 0.2 from yesterday anyway though). Today I'm not going to screw up. that's it.

4 comments:

Amanda said...

Randi... you've really done great with your weight and you some days you indulge, other days you eat great.. that's life.. I think it's harder the more you beat yourself up. Just keep reminding yourself what a healthy person you are and your choices will naturally follow that.

Jen said...

I think you have a great mentality!!!

I hate when I get shaky hungry...where your blood sugar gets so low...it's like that for people with Hypoglycemia...except really bad!!!

And you are allowed to screw up every once in a while...you are human!! Just don't make a habit of it ;p

tash said...

I'm going out to dinner tonight with a family member so I totally sympathize because I will do the same thing . . .

Angie All The Way said...

If I overindulge like that and eat lots of calories, sometimes it actually makes me feel less hungry for the entire next day - like my body already had enough calories like a camel with water!