Restart

I don't think I've ever done the whole, "well I'm wiping the slate and today is day 1" thing. But I think I'm going to now. It's been over a year since I lost 15 lbs. Hubby is still talking about how I lost all this weight to people and how good I look, he didn't realize it's been over a year. I look the same now as when I saw all these people last time, it's not a new thing. Also, I met my mini-goal a couple weeks ago (SILs wedding). It wasn't the goal weight I had ideally wanted to get to, but it was a goal of looking good in a smokin' dress and I did that. I didn't really intend to, but all my weight loss for the last year and a half sort of built up to that goal. If it was my wedding I would have felt the same ya know? That was the big occassion that I did it for. (obviously I like it for every day occassions too but for some reason I needed a goal occassion).

I don't think I'm done losing weight, I'd love to lose 5 more lbs. Correction, I'd love to lose whatever amount of weight it is that makes all my tight jeans not so tight.

I had a pretty nasty end to last week. (even though I said my week off was done thursday, it went on friday too, involving an obscene amount of reece's pieces. My tummy hurt and I thought I would barf.) That along with my lack of exercise for a LONG time now means I am feeling those jeans more than ever right now. But I dont' regret it. (well I regret the tummy hurting part). But not the week off.

I think it's sort of like being a runner. You run say 4 times a week, inproving your time, getting faster, running longer and farther. Probably in preparation for some race. You could train to be able to run a certain pace or something, but it doesn't have the same meaning as an event. I don't think you can purpetually train for a marathon. You do it for say 12 weeks leading up to the race. Take a week off, then start a new training program for a new race. I feel like I've been "training" for the last 2 years and the wedding a few weeks ago was finally the race (carry the analogy further, I may not have timed the peak perfectly and run a personal best, but I did meet my goal time...)

Anyway, so I've had my week off to reset. I enjoyed it fully. But I'm starting to feel the itch to run again (literally and figuratively). So starting now I'm going to forget that I've lost any weight in the past. My new starting weight is my weight today (which I didn't look at so we'll go with tomorrow's) and I'm working towards a new goal.

I think the goal is going to be Christmas parties, my work and hubby's work as well as whatever we end up doing for New Year's eve. I don't know the dates of these but I think mid december. Therefore, I'm going to make up a training program for these next 8 weeks. (I don't feel as great about this as a goal as I would about another wedding or a beach holiday or something with a bikini, but I think it'll grow on me when I start getting Christmassy)

Anyway, that's how I feel, that's what I'm doing. I feel really good about it and excited to make plans and stuff. Plus 8 weeks is such a good timeline, not too long that it drags forever but long enough to see changes.