it's real.

So I have been up in my weight since before Christmas. I know. None of my clothes fit right or look good. I know. Yes some how, I thought what I was doing was ok and that I didn't really look that bad (I still don't think I look BAD, but not how I want to look. Bring back last July!) So this morning I weighed in and took measurements. WI was nasty. 146.something. Ew ew ew. That's a number I haven't seen in like 2 years. And it's going the wrong way. Boo! (I do think TOM is playing with me right now though...) Well the measurements are worse. I'm up over an inch EVERYWHERE (belly, hips of course. but even my neck! my arm, and it's not muscle). So it's time to really be serious. There is a lot of work to do here!



I think I need to revisit my old friend Strength Training. I do what weights there are in my weekly classes, but after the first one, my muscles are basically used to it. it's light weights, I don't ever get sore the next day. So I need to dig out the barbell and hit it at least once a week. The running is good too, but I need to do intervals, not just the straight 30 minutes. (which I did again yesterday). I've got a week and a half left of free trial at one gym and I'm going to use it. Then I've got 6 passes to MY gym where I'm going to teach (the membership I get I'm assuming starts when I start, which should be March). So I think I can have Feb basically covered with gym time. Need to use it. I can't go today, didn't bring my stuff, and this weekend I've got to get my thesis edits done. No question. but there might still be time for me to do a weekend gym. That's always fun, no time restraints.



Ok, so that's the deal. I just went to Walmart while my monthly computer updates were being done (basically can't work for an hour anyway). Bought new earphones which is why I went. But then thought I needed a "snack" avoided everythign I knew I wouldn't be able to moderate (bags of chips, trail mix, etc.) didn't get granola bars either because I was in the mood to eat several ya know? So instead, I bought a couple protein bars. Lowest cal, highest protein, yet taste like chocolate bars! yay! But then at the checkout I bought a chocolate bar too (just a milk chocolate cadbury or something). But I didn't eat it. (was going to get a 100 cal bar, but it was MORE MONEY! so convinced myself that I'd be able to each just a couple squares. but I'm not going to touch it at all instead). Once I got in the car I didn't really want any of it. An hour later I had a protein bar (aka now).

Anyway, not much more to say again. Gonna make a weekend list, might post that later.